Speechless, Hopeless, and Useless.... WHY!!!

Feeling really useless at this point.

Couldn't really get a hold of anybody so I figured that this was the best place to vent. So without giving too much information, Here we go...

As you go through this crazyness we call life... we make choices. Wether you realize it or not everything you do is based off of a choice. You decide to get out of bed you decide to work you decide to not go to work (hehehe). But everything you do is a choice. Life is based off of choices.

Some of the choices we make are great and some not so great. When it comes to the matters of the heart... It's like throwing a cork screw into things. Our vision can be blinded, and we see past the reality and create a surreal scene that we want. Each and everyday we imagine a life that we've always wanted and when people come into play it just adds to the dream that you are trying to create.

On the other hand when it comes to the matters of the heart. It is UTTERLY AND COMPLETELY your choice. You know who he/she is you know some of his/her background, you know the good and the bad and even some of the ugly. You know of the family, after all of that knowledge. YOU, yes YOU still choose if this is a person for you or not. You choose to either FIND THE NEGATIVE or FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE. Negative or positive, the more you search/focus on it the more it grows.

Now, our family and friends will make these decisions, and in some cases we won't like the person that they've chosen. But if we all just step back and look you'll find that to them, this is happiness, this is what makes them complete, this is what makes them want to be better, this is who they have CHOSEN,to them this is LOVE!!!

Who am I to stand in the way. I can only give them my concerns and what they do with it is up to them. And after all is said and done, all that they ask is for your support. Hopefully they know what they're getting into and with everyone putting in their two cents, they are aware of the situation at hand and yet, it is STILL THEIR CHOICE.

Now to clarify, I think Love is beautiful, and that whoever you choose is completely up to you. I think that people should be supportive and stop critisizing people and what they behold to be LOVE!! Would you rather have them wonder "What If" and mope around miserable.

"It is better to have loved once

than to have not loved at all."

Love is a RISK!! and just like all other risks we need a support group, we need someone to push us forward but will be there when we fall. But to have your "MAIN" support group not support you at all, (this is where the speechless comes in)... "WOW" is the only word coming to mind.

I understand that at first you may not like him/her but eventually the love that you have for your family and friends over powers your bad feelings towards that person. But if your still not supporting your friend or family becuase of how you feel, then how SELFISH are you.

Love is always patient and kind

It is never jealous

it is never boastful nor conceited

it is never rude or selfish

it does not take offense, neither is it resentful

Love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins

But delights in the truth

It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope

to endure whatever comes.

I sincerely apologize if this doesnt make any sense as I am EXTREMELY scatter-brained right now.

Les